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Archive for April, 2001

Ah, Now I Understand

Sunday, April 22nd, 2001

Figured out what Jessie’s bad habit is. She likes to shred things. Note to Olaia, keep your toys put away… hmmm, maybe I can work this to my advantage *GRIN*.

Quote came to me in the car coming home from Reserve Duty. Don’t risk your life uselessly. USE it riskily. I was just thinking about people that have to thrill themselves with risk, bungie jumping, extreme sports, running with the bulls, whatever we can dream up to tempt death. This isn’t a useful way to spend your life. Now if you risk yourself in the service of others, save a buddy, stop a crime, struggle against politcal or religious oppression, do charity work in crime ridden areas etc. Now these are uses, and I imagine you’ll feel a lot more alive.

Olaia, the Cow Girl

Monday, April 16th, 2001

We went to a birthday party for one of Laura’s cousin’s daughters, Ana Isabel. It was in Guayama where Laura’s Uncle, Tio Benny (hehe, Tio means uncle… so that’s Uncle, Uncle Benny) has horses. At first Olaia was a little tentative. We finished one and a half laps and she said to me, "Daddy, I’m done."

"Oh, okay, little girl."

We went inside to play party games, run around, snack etc… and she kept trying to sneak out to see the horses. Hehe, that little girl finished the day with about 10 laps on the horseys.

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We also picked up a cute little stray dog that we named Jessie, after the Jessie from Toy Story II (whom Olaia loves). This little dog was recently abandoned and we gave her a new home, so it seemed the right name. She was lost and now she is found. And she IS the sweetest little dog. At 10 weeks, she is a little bundle of energy, but I can not figure out why someone would have abandoned her that way. Some people.

The Creation’s the Thing

Friday, April 13th, 2001

I’ve been listening to Performance Today, a classical music program from NPR, every day for the past two months. There’s nothing that I’ve enjoyed more than my daily dose of classical music, commentary, and history. Today, Fred Child related an interesting footnote to one of Haydn’s works. Haydn’s newest piece was anticipated with great expectation. His publisher was taking pre-orders on the score while Haydn finished it up. That’s where I began to think.

Imagine, no CD’s, records, tapes, broadcasts. People (although probably only the wealthier class) actually got all excited about a new score coming out. They went out and bought the paper copy, brought it home, learned, practiced, and played it. That was pretty much the only method of reproduction that existed. If you wanted to hear a performance you’d have to go to one. You as a listener didn’t control when and where the performances happened, so if you wanted music on demand, you had to play it.

Contrast this simpler form of music on demand to today’s digital streaming, napster, cd’s, Direct TV, DVD’s etc. These days you have access to thousands of hours of music at the touch of a button, from anywhere, while you’re jogging, driving, sitting, or studying. Where are we going? Obviously consumption of music has risen each year since CD’s where introduced. Since Napster came along, CD sales have increased over 50%. I’m sure the average music collection of Americans has grown considerably as well, both in pirated and legal works.

I pondered all this while listening to music and enjoying myself. It was easy, I sat there and listened. Imagine how long it would have taken me to write Bach’s Passion of Matthew? It’s a lot easier to listen to it than to write it, or play it. Playing it would require me to study it, Bach, and other performances by Bach devoteés. I would probably have to learn other pieces by Bach first, study technique, history… wow. That’s years of preparation, careful dissection, and practice. It is certainly easier to listen to it.

However, I do so wish that I had the time to learn to perform or write. One day, I keep saying, I will dedicate myself to learning an instrument. I’d like to be able to express myself in music. Sure it is infinitely more work than listening or consuming, but to create something… this is the joy of being human. I add maybe one or two pieces of music to the world, in my own little corner. Maybe just friends and family hear it. Maybe just Laura. Who knows, but it adds a little piece of sustenance to our hungry world. It maybe feeds someone’s soul just a bit. No one artist can create the world’s repertoire, just as no one can right all the wrongs of the world, feed every starving person, or save all the children. But if we all do a little, take a leap, give of ourselves a bit instead of consuming, eating, stuffing our faces with more and more and more every day, maybe then.

So music is big business there days. "What is going to sell?" the Sony execs ask. Creation is falling on fewer and fewer shoulders all the time. Orchestras around the country have been failing at an alarming rate. Pop music, never a bastion of creative integrity has gone from hiding pre-fabbed bands, keeping the secret that Milli Vanilli didn’t actually, write, sing or produce their own songs, to just doing it right there on the TV for millions to see. Who cares if they have talent. They look good, they can dance… the corporate interests will take care of the slick packaging. Isn’t it funny that there is more food in America than ever before, but more and more of it is being grown by fewer and fewer people. Is this how the disease, pesticides, and antibiotics have sneaked in? Is anybody at the wheel? Who’s driving this bus?

It’s all connected. You name it, our military power is being consolidated into fewer and fewer hands. Smart this and smart that. You only need one person these days to take out a city. Take our Government (please); far from the days of grass roots support and involvement, we get all of our information from CNN. Just serve it up steaming hot and we’ll suck it down without even a second thought. Does it matter that it’s not quality, that it doesn’t demand back from you? No, I’d rather just sit here. No wonder America is the fattest country on the planet. Is it also why we’re the hungriest as well?

And there I sat. Wasn’t it a wonderful dream.

Contorted for the Sake of Music

Thursday, April 12th, 2001

Well, we’ve been in Puerto Rico for almost 3 years now. I wonder if should change the title of this website to say, "What is Jim up to?" I first created it so that people (parents and friends) would know where I was. "Where" isn’t as big a deal anymore. "What" is more interesting at least.

I’ve been consumed with work mostly. Business is going okay… we’re running out of money, and things look grim. I believe the long term prospect is very good, but we have to pull off some miracles between now and then. Blah blah blah. Working hard, not doing much else, except…

Being obsessive about classical music. There’s this great radio program called Performance Today on National Public Radio. In Puerto Rico, it’s broadcast on a dinky little university radio transmitter. I could only pick it up in the car. It’s a two hour program, and so I never quite got to listen to very much of it. I sometimes would pull up to an appointment and sit in the car for five or ten minutes while I finished the piece like savoring a nice slice of pie. You always hate to rush it.

It always nagged me, tugged on my self… not a waking moment passed without thinking of a way to hear all of Performance Today. Their commentary, music from around the world, and history lessons are so valuable that even missing a single day is devastating. How to get that program recorded, I pondered.

Okay, first things first. Reception is terrible at our house. I tried small antennas, stringing them around the house, contorting and balancing them trying to find a sweet spot. Sigh, no avail after a few days of fighting, the static still ruined my listening experience.

Meanwhile, I had set up a special program in Linux to record it digitally every day while I was out. At least I could record the program, but it still sounded crappy. Since it was in digital format, I tried cleaning out the pops and static with a little program. It worked, albeit not as well as I would have hoped. The "cleaned" signal was decidedly flatter than the original. No pops, but the experience of sitting in a concert hall just wasn’t there. It still bugged me.

Bring in the big guns. I stomped off to Radio Shack one weekend to buy a rooftop antenna. I picked up a nice big one on clearance for 40 bucks. Not bad. Bought mounting hardware, wire, grounding kit etc., loaded it up and motored home. Since I am impatient, and I didn’t have time to install it on the roof, I stood it up in the back yard, strung the coax cable through the window and connected it up. I asked Laura to listen in the computer room to see how the music sounded while I stood in the back yard holding this contraption over my head. "How’s it sound now?"

"Bad."

"Okay, now?"

"Better."

"Better-fine, or better still bad."

"I don’t know, what do you consider good enough?"

I fiddled a bit more

"Oh, stop there, it sounds the best."

Groan. There I was with this thing high above my head contorted, leaning trying to avoid the trees. I placed it down best I could pointed it roughly in the same direction as before and went inside to hear for myself.

"Hey that sounds pretty good. I’ll leave it like that for a while."

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